’09 June 25 Thursday 5: 12 a.m. Not wanting to be sick, weak, or old is hating the body for holding and expressing what it is, in the same way that not wanting to feel any negative emotions that the Will is holding. Not liking any part of my body is rejecting it and if I'm rejecting it, denying it, then what I’m allowing to enter my Body is unloving light and death, instead of loving light and life.
I've been feeling off for a while now and I haven't been walking or exercising and this morning I feel like I've been hit by a truck. I have a sore throat, my bones are aching and I'm running a temperature. All I can think of is that I don't want to be sick and also that this is the same way that I used to treat my Will. If I don't want to feel this, I have to fix it. Trouble is that my first thought is for a quick fix, but I know that a quick fix solution doesn't solve the problem but only offers a temporary solution. What I need to do is to find the underlying cause of why I feel this way, of what my body is holding. So while healing the body may sound like loving intent, the intent is bent if it is just focusing on the superficial issues and not addressing the underlying cause of why the body is the way it is.
Note: Michael Jackson (50 years old) and Farrah Fawcett (62 years old) both died today MJ of a suspected heart attack and Farrah Fawcett of colon cancer.