2010 Feb 23 2:35 a.m. I awoke from a dream and wrote the following.
We search for a key to adore that we think is locked, when all we need to do is to step forward and raise our hand and the door will open. Fear is what holds us back. The door is not death, but life and what we are experiencing now, is not life, but death. While we think that the door leads to the unknown and death, it is merely the door from whence we came.
Death is not the fate that awaits us on the other side of the door. Death is on this side of the door that we are living and experiencing now. We have already opened the door and walked into the valley of death, now we need to choose to turn around and walk out of it. Not by dying and giving up what we call life, but by dying to the old imprints, programs and beliefs, and giving up the denials of self love that had been creating our living death.
We are afraid to turn around; to do the opposite of what we believe will keep us safe and away from death. We have been taught and naively believe that what we are experiencing is our lot in life. That suffering is the result of some past transgression. We believe that we need to continue to struggle for life, but in reality, our struggle is creating our death, because our struggle is in denial of our self, even though we believe otherwise. We are blinded by the shadow of death, of denial that hides the truth. We can’t see it for what it is, and believe we must endure to the point that we can no longer endure and maintain life, and must physically die. This is not living, but dying.